Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Follow me

The Lord says follow me.  How quickly I see that I am not even following Him but am following wherever I want to go.  Yesterday as I was walking out to my van to take my 2-year-old daughter to a doctors appointment for a cold she has, she started walking on the side of the van that her seat is not on.  She seems to try this often and sees that I get a little frazzled (not sure why, so silly) when she goes the wrong way.  She walks towards the street in our short driveway instead of front of the van where our garage door is and then around to her side of the van.  I said to her yesterday, you need to walk where mommy tells you to walk and not just whatever way you feel like walking!  Then immediately...the Lord super nudged me and said the same thing to me!

I was humbled.  I was stopped in my tracks in my thoughts.  I had nothing to say and had a revelation.  I do.  I go whatever way I want when I don't "feel" like going the way He is leading me.  As I look at this from my own perspective as a mother, I don't want my daughter going the other way because mostly she is going towards the street and we live close to the street and there is traffic that goes by often and I want her safe.  So its not that I am doing it to be mean.  I think of this as the Lord is, my Father, and He wants to protect me and keeps me safe.  His perspective and vision sees EVERYTHING.  My befores, durings and afters before they ever happen.  So he has the "in" as to what I need to be prepared for and which way I need to go.

I think about this and then start analyzing and questioning, well there is something more I still feel I have to figure out.  What in the world could it be, I have no idea.  I have to just come to the conclusion that the enemy will do whatever he can, even if it is just a doubt with no reasoning behind it, to stop me from following completely after Jesus every day of my life. 

If I choose to listen to that doubt and focus on it, I am not being obedient and following the lead of my Father who knows what is best.  So today, as hard as it may be to get into a new habit, I want to follow Jesus my leader all day long, every moment, choose Him. 

Lord please help me to do this.  It seems I have the thought, oh Kim you will never be able to do that.  You will have too much trouble hearing which way the Lord is going to lead you so you may as well not even try.  Just do your best and enjoy what you can each day and don't try too hard to hear the Lord, He is too far away, too distant, too hard to find and understand. Just do what you want.  Please help me every single time this lie comes up Lord to dismiss it and picture it being burned on the cross and gone forever, until it never comes back again.  Use my words and experiences to please encourage another person and help them to look to You and follow Your lead for their life, because there is no other way, and no other way to have peace or stability.  Thank you.  In Jesus Name, Amen

Are you struggling to find Jesus today?  In each moment, just look up and tell Him you want to follow Him. 

Psalm 81:13 “If my people would only listen to me, if Israel would only follow my ways,"

Psalm 119:33  "He Teach me, LORD, the way of your decrees, that I may follow it to the end."

Matthew 8:22 "But Jesus told him, “Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead.”

Matthew 16:24 "Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me."

Matthew 10:38  "Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me."

Seek First the Kingdom of God...
Kim :)