Sunday, August 28, 2011

Lies & the Battle in My Mind

To prevent me from God's will, walking by His Spirit that lives in me forever, is big fat lies and a big spiritual battle in my mind.  Now this isn't anything that can't be overcome with the Lord on my side.  But, there are lies that have kept me from truly walking this out and believing that it can be overcome and I can walk daily by His Spirit that lives in me.  My main struggle seems to be with food for the last several years.

The Lord is changing me by His Word and by His Spirit in me.  I long now more than ever to be close to Him, to be walking completely in His Spirit and to fill up with Him alone.  I am doing none of this on my own but He is doing the work in me and giving me the desire and I am wanting to run into His arms.

Today this song has been on my heart...listen and then listen again, I am going to do that also, because I think these words are something He has really put on my heart, I've been singing it all day.

Love to you...more later!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Saying Good-Bye to Food Once & For All

For me it is like letting go of a loved one.  I cannot believe the hold that food has had on me the past two years.  Having been freed from it twice already in the past 5 years, you would think I knew how to cling to God and let Him help me in this so I was never in bondage again.  How did I end up back here you ask...the answer, one single compromise after another.


The Lord is showing me things, that I have seemed to been ignoring or in denial about the past two years, this past week.  Things about sin and how that is what I should be realizing is going on, and not that I am gaining weight and am losing control.  New perspective coming in my life and changes are in store in me as well.  God is doing a new thing and He is working even now and the fruits of His work will be showing up soon, when I am not even expecting it!  Thankful for that.

Two scriptures on my heart:

Isaiah 43:19 For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.

The other I cannot seem to find at the moment but I know what the message of it says that as soon as we think we have "got it" or that we are doing good, be careful because then we are sure to stumble.  

So I want to rely on the Lord and learn to be more and more reliant on Him and not myself, because as soon as I think I have anything under control it will not be pretty.  God alone.  He is enough.  Food has to go and cannot hold a place in my heart anymore.  

It is like losing a great friend, this food.  I'm turning my back and asking God for help to learn how to fully live for Him and ENJOY Jesus each moment every day and work through feelings and circumstances without my old friend (idol/god but totally not a god), food.  

Good bye food (my love for it).  

Goodbye text in speech bubble

Lord help me as I step out in faith.  I want this next day to be different.  Forgive me my sins, cleanse me and help me turn my back to the idols in my life and turn my face towards You and enjoy life!~  Thank you for today and for life and breath, I pray whoever reads this today will hear what You are saying to them and that they will just love you more.  In Jesus Name, Amen :)

Love to you...more later....

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Monday, August 15, 2011

Good morning.  I am caught up on my reading the Bible in 90 days.  This week it is Ezra, Nehemiah, Esther, Job and then into the Psalms towards the weekend.  I am really looking forward to a week or more of reading in the Psalms.  I feel it will be perfect timing too as it is the first week my kids all go back to school, I will need the Psalms for sure.

The change I am feeling in wanting to make in my blog will be that of something I learned while reading "A Woman After God's Own Heart" by Elizabeth George.  She is talking about what we will do with our life and our passions and how God will use us.  She talks about finding 5 areas that you are passionate about and just going to work studying and learning in those areas.  To make 5 folders and just add things to them as you grow and learn.  Well I have had my 5 folders for a few years but they are mostly empty.  I feel that I am going to change my blog into my 5 folders and have 5 tabs on 5 different areas of life that I am passionate about and just learn and grow in the Lord and share in those areas as God teaches me.  I am excited but will wait for the perfect timing to make those changes.

Lately in my eating I have felt the Lord really showing me to listen to Him.  Weight gain has been the cause of me trying to lose weight or eat the way "I" wanted and not what He wanted.  I have to align my desires with His and then things will flow and my weight will decrease.

I am not committing to another study until I am done with my awesome reading the Bible in 90 Days, but am reading through a book/devotional called Eating with the King and she talks about eating for hunger only.  That is what the Lord is really calling me to focus on in walking it out each day.  Lord help me to listen and obey.  In Jesus Name, Amen

More to you!

Thursday, August 4, 2011


I have not posted in a while.  I have been sucked into reading the Bible in 90 Days and enjoying and being busy the last few weeks of summer.  I have been praying about what the Lord would want me to talk more about on my blog and feel changes will be coming soon, good ones as far as I can see, and I look forward to seeing how it changes soon.

I am just combing through God's Word, getting to know Him better by seeing in the Bible how His character is throughout and how he responds and has relations with people in the Bible.  It helps me so much to relate it to my life, and i am only 26% through the Bible.  He has great things in store for me and my heart in this wonderful journey.

If you are interested in reading the Bible this way, I already know I will recommend it because it is changing me so much and teaching me a lot, check this out:  Moms Tool Box!

More later, love to you!!!