I think as I do this more and more it will help me to realize that I really didn't want that "thing" to begin with.
In "Eating with the King" Terri Rockewell says in regards to getting confused and wanting to turn to many different things: (Page ix)
"Oh, I lost 25 pounds in those four months. But, don't seek Him for that reason! He's worthy of so much better than that! The pure JOY I experienced in the process of learning to be fed by my HEavenly Father far surpassed the thrill of tucking in my shirts and wearing belts for the first time since middle school. (But, that was part of the joy that Jesus and I celebrated together.
Our intimacy at that time was meal-by-meal, moment-by-moment. We celebrated the Lord's Supper all day. It was true communion as I waited upon Him for true bodily hunger and relied upon Him to show me fullness.
It really was as simple as that. Satan likes to confuse us with many options and complex costly weight loss plans and programs. Jesus simply says, 'Here I am. I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him and him with me. -Revelation 3:20'"
Stuck is how I've felt the past two years. Stuck is not where I am staying. Lord help me press on in blind faith. Help me to journal all my thoughts and find the lies that I have been believing and give me truths from You to replace those lies, renew my mind Lord and renew anyones mind that is reading this that needs to hear Your truth and stop believing lies and live...live the abundant life in Jesus that you want us to live. Fill us up Lord, in Jesus Name, Amen
Love to you...more later!