Saturday, November 24, 2012


Feeling numb especially in the area of eating.  I have exhausted it in my mind heart and soul.  I have sabotaged many well intended starts I have taken.  I have doubted ideas and inspiration.  I have sadly given up in my heart.  I suppose that is a good thing as that is when God changes you.  When you surrender and give it up.  I can't control anymore.

Thoughts. Random brain dump.  I can do this.  I don't have to have everything figured out.  I cannot focus outside of this very moment.  I have to stay in this moment.  And be all there.  Keep my focus on His face.  I asked Him to be my personal trainer.  He is very capable of doing that.  I have to allow Him in.  More.  More than ever.  And not run away or try and hide again.  Vulnerable.  Need more vulnerability.  It's okay if I feel something.  Really it is.  No need to numb anymore.

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Prayer.  Jesus I need help to be vulnerable.  To feel again.  To let you and others in.  To have discernment of when to let in and when to have boundaries.  I want to be the intuitive eater that You and my body so desires me to be.  I have all the knowledge.  But like I heard Joyce Meyer say a few weeks ago...we have so much more knowledge than our level of obedience.  I truly know this is true for me.  I have exhausted my mind in it all.  I need a fresh start now.  Right now I ask you to sweep me off my feet with Your love and to help me restart in filling up on You and not food or drink.  You are so much better than that and I know that is Truth. Jesus be my everything and even though things might not change right away and I may not see immediate results, please help me rely on You and keep taking steps of obedience when I don't feel like it or when it is hard and help me to see the clear path of personal training You have in store for me each moment of each day.  I.  Need.  You.  In Jesus Name, Amen


More later...Kim 

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

His Hand Puppet

My prayer tonight is that I will be like His hand-puppet with Him leading and me resting in Him and so in love with Him.

Jesus calling today was perfect for me to hear.  This is what it said:

From "Jesus Calling by Sarah Young - November 19

"LEAVE OUTCOMES UP TO ME. Follow Me wherever I lead, without worrying about how it will all turn out. Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. Live in the 'now,' concentrating on staying in step with Me. When our path leads to a cliff, be willing to climb it with My help. When we come to a resting place, take ti...
me to be refreshed in My Presence. Enjoy the rhythm of life lived closed to Me.

You already know the ultimate destination of your journey: your entrance into heaven. So keep your focus on the path just before you, leaving outcomes to Me."

"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD."
Psalm 27:13-14

"'In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.'"
Exodus 15:1
Seems to be the theme lately of what I am learning.  To walk by His Spirit, obey His Word, and then you think, how in the world will I be able to do those things...and your mind starts spinning?  Well then the answer can't do it.  He will do it for you.  He will give you the grace, strength and power to walk by His Spirit and obey His Word.  Thankful.

Where you go I'll go by Brian and Jenn Johnson is the song on my heart this week--heard for first time at church Sunday!
More later...Love to you!