It has been a while since I have written about my journey to be FREE from any hold on food or body image. I am determined to not have any hold on me. Any time I start to head down a path where some food or some program has a hold on me, I stop and don't go further. It means a slow journey for me to be at my natural weight, but it also means freedom and I think that is the way I am going to get there.
My goal is to eat when I'm hungry and stop when satisfied and have had just enough, and then go on with my life. I don't want food or body image to tie me down and occupy too much space, like it always has, in my mind and life. I also believe God wants this for me as well. Though He may be saying, Kim be patient you can't expect this to happen overnight, I am saying this is taking so long what am I doing wrong?!
So here I am. Several years later. I have maintained the same weight I have been at for 3 years, have not gained and actually even lost 15 pounds back in August and have maintained that weight loss as well. I now want to be fit too and am feeling like I am wanting to be in shape because I need that energy. Though I know in the past God has shown me that I don't need to put the wrong emphasis on exercise, slowly I will get there to where I can be fit, but not ruled by exercise either. It's a balance and I want that balance to be so sweet.
Some of the things that I have really been learning lately:
- Renewing your mind is so important. I have used Barb Raveling's resources a lot in this and she even just had a new book come out. Click here to see her site and all the great resources. Romans 12:2 is where this comes from in the Bible. Go check it out.
- Keeping God first. This really is something I am being reminded of in just the last few days or the last week. When I do anything other than trying to seek God with all my heart, then I get stuck. So clinging to God alone, first, and then all else is added-including weight loss, joy, peace and not chaos and confusion, the steps to take in each day in every situation, etc. Matthew 6:33 is where this comes from too. Read for yourself and see what you get from that.
- Take it one moment at a time, one day at a time. I can't think I want to understand it all and fix it all and think I am going to get anywhere. It really is a step by step journey relying solely on the Holy Spirit. This book is something that is a great read about this, Just Enough Light for the Step I'm on-Stormie Omartian.
OH and p.s..........one day I WILL be brave enough to share pictures of me and my journey, I'm a work in progress and can't wait for God to show off all He is doing in my heart, body and life!